getting closer

Because of my medical condition, I am not supposed to be standing/walking for an extended period of time, which means I haven't been able to do any chores or even prepare food for myself for awhile. I am so grateful that my DH takes really good care of me though. He has been taking on the responsibility of preparing my meals for the last 4 months despite of how extremely busy he is at work.  I know he gotta be exhausted after all day at work, as he gets up at 6am and doesn't get home till 6:30pm on most days, yet he still sacrifices all his precious resting time to make me lunch/dinner and do all the dishes late night. I so wish I could have helped him out more when I am just sitting/resting at home all day whenever I see him working his ass off inside and outside the home everyday. I can't help but feel bad that all the burden has fallen on DH's shoulders when I see how tired he gets everyday.  He doesn't even have to tell me how tired he is because I can just tell by how fast he falls asleep (literally in 2 seconds) and how much weight he has lost these days. :( I just hope that I can recover soon after delivering the baby and pick up the chores to help DH out.

Delicious meal prepared by DH

unexpected happiness

I have never felt this way before until I started shopping, preparing, and organizing things for the little miracle in me. Even though I am pretty overwhelmed by all the things that need to be done before he makes his entrance, it's such a joyful feeling that there is someone there fully depending on me.  Is this what we called "instincts"? As much as I hate to admit it, but I think I will definitely spoil my little one rotten as he's just so precious to me, more than what  I could have ever imagined even just a year ago.

These are what we've got him so far :D

No one said it's easy

No one ever said life is easy.  We all struggle with family, friends, health, life, and everything else.  It's always disappointed that when things don't go the way you expected/wanted.  I am just not sure why I can't be happy when I have things or the life that one can't complain too much about.  I live in one of the greatest places in the world, a loving family (even though we have our down times every now and then), and a rather low stress life.  Nonetheless, I still feel that it's not enough and I still want more. Is it normal or I am being too greedy?

A gorgeous rose garden