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Friday, June 1, 2012

nesting instinct

Not sure if it's nesting instinct kicking in or what, I just can't seem to stop planning how to organize mini's goodies. We just started to shop for him not too long ago (probably only 3 weeks ago), but we have accumulated so much stuff all of a sudden. I have been piling up all his stuff in the corner of the room and the pile is getting out of control. =P

I am getting nervous that I won't have much time to prepare before mini's grand entrance, so I guess I better start organizing for real and washing his clothes/socks/hats/blankets...I think we pretty much have everything besides a breast pump, baby monitor, and some miscellaneous things. Hopefully we will get everything ready and prepared by this weekend!

Diaper caddy ready :D


Feeding essentials (for some reason I really like the design of Lansinoh products)

Things still need to get done -

Build playard
Build bouncer
Build dresser
Finish installing car seats
Laundry
Sanitize feeding essentials

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

getting closer

Because of my medical condition, I am not supposed to be standing/walking for an extended period of time, which means I haven't been able to do any chores or even prepare food for myself for awhile. I am so grateful that my DH takes really good care of me though. He has been taking on the responsibility of preparing my meals for the last 4 months despite of how extremely busy he is at work. I know he gotta be exhausted after all day at work, as he gets up at 6am and doesn't get home till 6:30pm on most days, yet he still sacrifices all his precious resting time to make me lunch/dinner and do all the dishes late night. I so wish I could have helped him out more when I am just sitting/resting at home all day whenever I see him working his ass off inside and outside the home everyday. I can't help but feel bad that all the burden has fallen on DH's shoulders when I see how tired he gets everyday. He doesn't even have to tell me how tired he is because I can just tell by how fast he falls asleep (literally in 2 seconds) and how much weight he has lost these days. :( I just hope that I can recover soon after delivering the baby and pick up the chores to help DH out.

Delicious meal prepared by DH

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

unexpected happiness

I have never felt this way before until I started shopping, preparing, and organizing things for the little miracle in me. Even though I am pretty overwhelmed by all the things that need to be done before he makes his entrance, it's such a joyful feeling that there is someone there fully depending on me. Is this what we called "instincts"? As much as I hate to admit it, but I think I will definitely spoil my little one rotten as he's just so precious to me, more than what I could have ever imagined even just a year ago.

These are what we've got him so far :D

Thursday, May 10, 2012

No one said it's easy

No one ever said life is easy. We all struggle with family, friends, health, life, and everything else. It's always disappointed that when things don't go the way you expected/wanted. I am just not sure why I can't be happy when I have things or the life that one can't complain too much about. I live in one of the greatest places in the world, a loving family (even though we have our down times every now and then), and a rather low stress life. Nonetheless, I still feel that it's not enough and I still want more. Is it normal or I am being too greedy?

A gorgeous rose garden

Thursday, April 19, 2012

parents are in town

My parents finally came visit me after staying a month with my sister and her baby. I haven't seen my parents since Nov and it's always comforting to have them around. Nonetheless, it's tough not to battle/get annoyed with my parents when we haven't been living together for such a long time. Our living habits and views on things are so different that it's inevitable to have frictions and conflicts between us. Sometimes I get so frustrated that all I know is to cry. On one hand, I am not happy with what my parents do but on the other hand, I am mad at myself for not being more understanding and patient with them. Afterall, no one is perfect and I cannot expect them to be perfect all the time. I feel bad every time after losing my temper with them as I know how much they love me, no matter what. I feel so helpless and all I can do is to pray to God for giving me strengths to improve our relationship.

I love my parents dearly and all I want is for them to be happy, especially when we don't even have that much time to be together. I feel so guilty when I can't always be around them to take care of them. We haven't been living together as a family for over 14 years and it's hard to see them grow old every time I see them after awhile. It hurts me so much whenever I see their hair turn grey and get thinner. I wish I could be there for them whenever they need me. Can someone let me know when will this day come? :(

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Stanford mall

Weather was awesome today so DH and I went to hang out at the Stanford mall a little bit. The mall seems to be pretty kid and dog-friendly. We went to Palo Alto Creamery Fountain and Grill to grab a bite. The food is not bad but they weren't very accommodating to switch tables for us when we clearly stated that I am allergic to dogs.